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designer ;
friend ;
friend ;
friend ;
friend ;
friend ;
friend ;

Piglet

name: Div ;
school: MJ ;
age: 19 ;
birthday: unknown ;
star sign: Wishing star ;
addicted to piggyness ;

piglet <3s

God ;
family ;
being a doctor ;
helping people ;
hugs ;

piglet hates

himself ;
his skin condition ;
his weakness ;
dark ;
nothing else ;

piglet wishlist

peace ;
perfect A level results ;
more time ;
more health ;
more income ;
place in medicine australia ;
save people ;

pig.musicx

above all
by Michael W. Smith

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Hm.. actually I have mixed feelings about blogging today and what to write on... It will be a long post..

Yesterday and today was a little disappointing but yet sweet. (meant for me and her to know only =P) Sent my darl to town and I stayed in taka to study a little. Sadly, I lacked sleep; the weather and poor lighting of the library made me felt super sleepy so I went for lunch and shopping awhile.. Waited for a few hours as I was not sure if my company was wanted for. When my darl went home, I know I don't have to wait so I went to my favourite place in orchard.

So the usual div takes a stroll into the bar and gets a shot of absolute vodka(thankful it's not graveyard). Only difference is.. I went there in school uniform yesterday.. which meant of course the person will check my IC. Not that they don't check at other times but rather it's even more significant they check my age before serving me alcohol especially when I go for strong ones. Of course there were many eyes that was looking at me.. People in the pub and people from outside the roads of busy street Orchard. And on my way home I had another 2 shots of vodka absolute. Of course, Div can't get drunk. The only problem is.. Div has a damaged liver.. So even though I thought it was insignificant but ended up at night, my hand had a little skin allergy. >.< though ="D">

Was suppose to go out with darl today but unfortunately she can't go out =( Will be meeting up my friend later tonight to get the poster and crossword puzzle done. Time to finish up the tutorials for next week =)
Darling, it's ok, not blaming you or anything k? I understand and I'm glad that we already have a lot more time together as compared to others. I also appreciate that you try to find time for me such as yesterday's drink together before you meet you friends <3>

That was what happened yesterday and upcoming. As for my main post..

Hm. God has been nice to me I must say.. Though there has been many downs but he has made these downs much smoother to handle and accompanied through with caring people. Quite a number of things happened in and out of school. But I have and will still only reveal the stuff that people know and commonly hear of. Mainly for privacy and secondly because I know the readers of my blog might change their perception of me and my thoughts.

This place is what I describe as quiet public place. A place that though I know there are many readers but few comment or discuss about the issues here these days. To these people, I'm really grateful that you've been my joy and sorrow companions. It was tough journey through the years but I'm still standing mainly because of all these supportive friends =) Another reason why I call this a quiet public place is as I dun like to share my problems to people who are supposedly ideal to be able to help such as ms lai or my civics tutor or even my prof. Some how I keep thinking all problems I can solve but there are times I'm weak and fragile--crumpling down to emotional swings. So for all school related stuff and certain personal problems.. I tend to post them here. Not to be empathized or to be discussed about but more of a release of my tension in my soul.

Many a times, I actually have the answers to the problems but it's just the mental stress that I can keep up with instead of being paranoid and lost of directions. Somehow I dunno if I should be blogging about my life especially about me and my darl. There has been negative comments of people that I know in real life and these I must admit has put me away for quite a bit. Some say I blog to gain pity, some say I blog to gain popularity and some say harsh comments of my thoughts and feelings.

But people.. can I please clarify that what I comment here are usually my feelings and thoughts but not my actions? Of course there are things that are really actions which I think many especially my darl should know. (My work, my passion for music and martial arts, my priorities in life. Most importantly, it's my love for darl)

Thoughts of what I think of others and complains of problems does not equate to me going to react by doing bad or wrong things. Despite the negativity I still turn to this old place; where I can find people to just share that little emotional upset or share my joy.

Though I discuss about me and her about some disappointment I felt but rather, I'm happy for what is already blessed by god. Thankful for people still believing in me. Thankful for the motivation and support. Thankful for a understanding and sweet girl. Thankful that despite many times we can go out together but we can see each other almost 5 days a week which may seem short but yet is so sweet and warm. Thankful for the simple but yet sweet words from my darl whenever i'm feeling blue. Thankful for the joy and happiness she brought into my life and thankful that I'm still alive to love her more.

Lastly let me end of with a little prayer for all. Wishing all a successful A level and promotion in meridian. For WQ and Chuan, wishing u guys to get the grade you want and for the rest, a successful life in career. God bless everyone and if teachers see this, Happy teacher's day =)
Darling if u see this, here's wat i want to say to you. The most important prayer is for us. For us to have the strength and faith to carry on. The courage to overcome hurdles and love each other even more each day. We'll overcome promos, earn the trust of your parents and we'll go up to university, worklife and marriage as a loving and happy couple <3*~>

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